A North West View

So there is an article on a gay "news" sight, I use the term loosely as it seems like most gay "news" sites it is much more tabloid over all then news. (which is another story all together) The article blew up my Google Plus news feed along with my Facebook news feed with people commenting on it. It is an article that is quite conversational, especially in the light to what was the fight for marriage equality, and the idea of trying to redefine the legal definition of marriage, and thus what it means entirely. The article happens to feature gay men, however what they would like to see is a new special right that dose not exist for any one right now.  Which has created a division as there is the contingent that says it should be the next big push for the movement, and they are clashing derectly with those that feel it should not in any way be a part of the movement, and I find myself in the latter camp. So right after the jump will be the article.

As someone with a mental illness that is various levels of out, depending on the platform and situation.  for example on This blog, YouTube, and Tumblr I am fully out about my bipolar. On Google+ and Twitter I am sorta out, as I will post articles and things about it.  Then we come to Facebook, work and most of my social life where I am not out about it at all.  In those realms people have a general idea that I have some sort of mental issue simply because they know me and have seen some examples of it, but don't know what it is, or how serious it is.  In a lot of those areas of my life there are people that say things that really annoy the heck out of me as someone that has a mental illness, then there are things that just the general public say too. So in this blog post I thought that I would share some of those things.

So I have posted a new story on my new spin off blog  A North West View Stories .  I really enjoyed writing the story.  It is published on my new blog, and is definitely a story for the 18 and over crowed (like the warning on the blog says) so it.  Here is the link  Thoroughly Used By Security  Until next time dear readers.

So I have been working on writing a new story, that will be posted on my new blog that I spun off of this one when I took the last story that I wrote off of this one and putting it on my new blog (so that I could take that age warning off of this blog) you can find my new blog here  http://anorthwestviewstories.blogspot.com/ This is a teaser from the new story that I am working on. ""no" replied Jeremy as he closed the distance between them, "there is just something that I need to share with you" he continued until he was barely one step away from running right into John, all the while never braking eye contact. "what is it that you need to share with me?" John asked even more unsure of what was going on then he had been a few moments ago. After a moments silence John feels Jeremy place a hand on the small of his back and another on the back of his head, then with out a moments pause Jeremy pulls him against him self and their lips meet, ...

So it is time for another book review, after a long hiatus from reading, where I did not make time in my day to do so, I have started up again.  And the first book in that list was Ticktock by Dean Koontz.  I picked it up at the book store mid day, and by that evening I had read the book cover to cover.  I absolutely not put the book down, to the point that I would get irritated when other people would interrupt and make me put it down.  The book grabs you from the start and never lets go, never leaving you a spot that you would even think of being able to put it down and pick it up latter.

So today was not a good day at all, my sleep has been screwy for a little while now because work has been bouncing me all over the place, from opening to closing and back again.  Well last night I forgot on of my medications, which was not good.  I could not get to sleep, at like 2:30 I finally took a couple of ibuprofen PM's and finally got to sleep around 3:30 and was fitfully away around 5:00 and fully awake by 6:00 so I only got about 3 hours of sleep.  Which did me in, I started my day with anxiety through the roof.  I really should have just called into work, but I did not want to because I did not want to lose the hours and risk losing insurance coverage for the up coming month. So I went to work, and that did not turn out well at all as my anxiety did not go away and only got worse, and then on top of that I went from feeling I could do it and that things would turn out OK in the end, to starting to be really down and depressed, which only made things worse....

So it has been a while since I have last posted, things have been very hectic on my side of the screen. I have been helping with some home improvement projects, I helped my dad and brother put a deck in our old wood shed, to put a new BBQ in to help keep it out of the rain.  Then we are in the middle of putting new decking and railings on the existing deck (we kept the old framing but did some beefing up) I have also been busy with friend.  I had someone that I went on a few dates with, who seemed like a great guy.  However that ended abruptly, as 3 days after our second date (a candle lit watching of a move at his house) I tried to set up a third date, and sometime in those 3 days he had entered into an exclusive relationship with some one else.  It was something that he had neglected to tell me until I tried to set up a up the third date, yet he was willing to talk to me via text every day up until then.  He gave me the line that I was a great guy and som...