A North West View

Running towards change, a massive change, excitement mixed very liberally with fear. Fear of the unknown, and fear of what happens if success is not forthcoming but instead failure is instead the result that pours forth into the landscape of reality.  Failure that would all but reinforce the worst assumptions about one’s self, who they are and what they are capable of.  Yet change is inevitable, so the only real question is do you take that bull by the horns and try and direct the change that you want or do you let change trample all over you and merely try to adjust to it instead.

I have decided a little after New Years that I would like my goal to be to go back to school and get a college education.  I have determined that the only way to do that would be to go to school online, as I need to have totally open availability at work in order to get hours and I need at least 24 hours a week for health insurance and even more then that if I want to be able to pay for college, with out hopefully taking out a bunch of loans.Since I would like to avoid burying myself under lots of debt, I want to try and be able to pay for it out of pocket.  I am thinking about trying to start off taking online courses at the local community college.

So there is an article on a gay "news" sight, I use the term loosely as it seems like most gay "news" sites it is much more tabloid over all then news. (which is another story all together) The article blew up my Google Plus news feed along with my Facebook news feed with people commenting on it. It is an article that is quite conversational, especially in the light to what was the fight for marriage equality, and the idea of trying to redefine the legal definition of marriage, and thus what it means entirely. The article happens to feature gay men, however what they would like to see is a new special right that dose not exist for any one right now.  Which has created a division as there is the contingent that says it should be the next big push for the movement, and they are clashing derectly with those that feel it should not in any way be a part of the movement, and I find myself in the latter camp. So right after the jump will be the article.

As someone with a mental illness that is various levels of out, depending on the platform and situation.  for example on This blog, YouTube, and Tumblr I am fully out about my bipolar. On Google+ and Twitter I am sorta out, as I will post articles and things about it.  Then we come to Facebook, work and most of my social life where I am not out about it at all.  In those realms people have a general idea that I have some sort of mental issue simply because they know me and have seen some examples of it, but don't know what it is, or how serious it is.  In a lot of those areas of my life there are people that say things that really annoy the heck out of me as someone that has a mental illness, then there are things that just the general public say too. So in this blog post I thought that I would share some of those things.

So I have posted a new story on my new spin off blog  A North West View Stories .  I really enjoyed writing the story.  It is published on my new blog, and is definitely a story for the 18 and over crowed (like the warning on the blog says) so it.  Here is the link  Thoroughly Used By Security  Until next time dear readers.

So I have been working on writing a new story, that will be posted on my new blog that I spun off of this one when I took the last story that I wrote off of this one and putting it on my new blog (so that I could take that age warning off of this blog) you can find my new blog here  http://anorthwestviewstories.blogspot.com/ This is a teaser from the new story that I am working on. ""no" replied Jeremy as he closed the distance between them, "there is just something that I need to share with you" he continued until he was barely one step away from running right into John, all the while never braking eye contact. "what is it that you need to share with me?" John asked even more unsure of what was going on then he had been a few moments ago. After a moments silence John feels Jeremy place a hand on the small of his back and another on the back of his head, then with out a moments pause Jeremy pulls him against him self and their lips meet, ...

So it is time for another book review, after a long hiatus from reading, where I did not make time in my day to do so, I have started up again.  And the first book in that list was Ticktock by Dean Koontz.  I picked it up at the book store mid day, and by that evening I had read the book cover to cover.  I absolutely not put the book down, to the point that I would get irritated when other people would interrupt and make me put it down.  The book grabs you from the start and never lets go, never leaving you a spot that you would even think of being able to put it down and pick it up latter.