having) as for it to seem to be going on in a separate world one that dose not really pierce into the one that I occupy, it feels the best I can manage to put it like you are almost dead like one is caught in between the world of the living and the world of the dead, but you are more dead then alive. Not only that but I also no longer really fallow anything let alone news and politics, as it all just seems pointless and even though when the times are good it is a passion of mine, like everything now it brings no joy into my life, and I simply no longer have the emotional or mental energy let alone will to devote any time to it. Even my YouTube subscriptions go pretty much unfollowed, as to watch them just consumes energy that I no longer posses, and they almost never bring any joy or light into my life, and if they due it is a torturous one that simply shows that what is no longer a part of my existence.
What all of this means is that I don't have any of the sorts of drive and inspirations to write about important events, activism or even social issues at all. Instead all I am left with if anything at all is relatively dark and unpleasantness that populates my existence, my mind and my soul, and is not something I think that any of you would really understand let alone want to hear about, so instead I don't blog. I don't want to be a appointment's to my followers but I also can't promise the sort of blogs that you guys want or would want to read. As much as I wish that I could promise that I will come up with something or that I will be back at it soon but I can't, as when I have to struggle to find the energy to find the will to keep living, I simply can't promise anything to any one as I don't even know that I will be able to keep it.
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