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Quick update

I know that it has been a while since my last post, and this is going to be a quick update as I really don't have a lot of time.  I have not been doing the best but have been trudging along and pushing myself threw it, and hoping to be able to find the light at the end of the tunnel soon.  That and starting at the 1st of July the remodel of our kitchen started so that has been stressful.  I will not be able to do any real blogging for at least the next two weeks as I am out of my room for them as the drywalls and painters work on fixing the dry wall and repainting the whole upstairs of the house, so every thing has moved into my room and my parents have taken it over.

I'm not the most social right now that and since I don't actually have any "privet time" on my computer the only way that I can blog is by sending it in as an email from my Cell, which as you can guess it takes a heck of a lot of time to compose.  Not only that but for the most part I have been very disconnected not only just in my daily life and feeling disconnected from what is going on around me and what I am experiencing almost like its more of a movie or interacting with like some sort of video game, but also I have pretty much been disconnected with currant events as to add trying to deal with even caring about them is more then I can really muster right now.


  1. I dont like the sound of you being so disconnected with things you love. This shouldnt be ignored as its a symptom that needs to be addressed. Yes, living without any privacy is hard, and having your normal living patterns tossed around isnt good for you either.

    You might need to go back to the doctor, and soon. And this time you might think again about some meds. Yes, I know all the horrid side-effects and whatnot, but your starting to unravel again, and this has me worried.

    Ask for the mildest dose, of the oldest medicine. Often the older stuff has much less side effects and tends to not try to address so many symptoms with one med.

    Good luck, im very glad you posted, been worried about you.

  2. I am on a medication now, its working its way up to an effective dose. But I think that my constant levels of anxiety and distrust and worry. That and obviously the stress and disruption of what little routine probly complicates things.

  3. thanks for letting me know your ok. i worry about you. im glad your aware of your emotions. glad to hear your on some med to help you out. just remember one step at a time, ok?

    hugs and smiles

  4. Hi!

    Tis been a bit since your last update. How are you? Please let me know your ok, please?


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