How ever much more firmly routed in the future is another disastrous adventure for me in the world of dating, I really am beginning to think that my dating life is some sort of plot for a dating disaster book as this latest disaster is a dozy!! This one is also probably on of my shortest lived dating adventures as well, which in the long (heck even short run is definitely a good thing) OK to start from the beginning I met what seemed to be like a very nice guy online (any one noticing a theme here?) and we started talking and hitting things off nicely.
Of course threw due course of action we set up a date and I meet him for the first time and he seems to be an exceptionally great guy (don't they all, again seems to be a theme here) and we enjoy are time together on the date. well we go on a couple more dates and progress to fooling around with each other (but not quite all the way) and things seem to be heading in a great direction. Now flash forward to Tuesday, we have been on a few dates and done all that small talk stuff and basic sort of get to know you type things, so I being someone that like to learn about others and make deep connections try to well talk about things in a more in depth, deep personality type of way. Well every attempt at this gets pretty flatly shot down, so seeing as we seemed to be on the same page about what we where looking for I was like ok maybe we should talk about this.
So at this point is when the first shoe drops not so surprisingly and he says he things we are looking for two different types of things, and the he is looking for someone to have more "fun" with and less basically intimacy with. Not something that shocked me less so was the fact that he had still been chatting with others (as had I since it has not even be quite a full week and well there was nothing official about it) I was all like cool and we can certainly still be friends, as he has suggested, something that at the moment seemed good and like it would turn out well.
Not only that but I feel a fool and stupid for being played so well, and for falling for it hock line and sinker. I feel like an idiot for being the string puppet that danced and provided such obvious entertainment for the person pulling the strings, and doing so at the cost of me, and with no regard for me at all. I feel like a fool for not catching on and being so shocked and surprised when it came out, I wounder can I ever find someone that is not trying to use me to try to play me for an idiot. I wounder why I keep going so wrong.