So I have promptly managed to brake my attempt to do a blog every day, in big part because silly me I forgot that I was going to have a lot of extra stuff going on as well as constant guest in my room as the upstairs has the Asbestos popcorn ceilings removed. Which involves removing everything from the upstairs into ether the garage or my room. And because our dog who is afraid of people and also very unhappy when it comes to change is going to have to stay in the house, I have gained him and my brother in my room, as well as my parents to help keep our dog as comfortable as possible. Luckily as long as things go as planed by 9am on Thursday we should be able to start moving back upstairs, thus giving me my room back.
While being balanced mode wise is something that is good and something that I am glad to be, although I do wish that my medications made me feel less drained like I have been dragging a heavy weight around with me while I do things, in part because my mind seems to be sort of slow and just not totally with it at times leaving it to take a lot of energy to concentrate and get things done and that mental energy also has a physical manifestation as well, and is what tends to make me feel the most drained. while it is good to be balanced it is hard to not want to have a taste of the forbidden fruit that I have been brought down from having a minor taste of and that is to be on the more manic side of things. It is times like this when I know that the meds are keeping me from an amazing natural high, that it is so tempting just to stop taking my medications.
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