Now as much as I would like to pretend, being dumped especially so suddenly and unexpectedly is not nor has never been something easy for me to handle, and normally takes me quite some time to mend the broken pieces from. It especially dose not help when the person doing the dumping dose it in quite a painful way or as in this case one that hurts is a surprise and plays on and mater of fact uses an existing insecurity that came about with the demise of my very first relationship. In this case being going from things being all fine to all of a sudden no longer communicating with me and then in this case unfriending me on Facebook. This would still have hurt and been bad but what makes it all that much worse is that, I had trusted this guy and told him about said insecurity that I has worked on and that it had been caused when my very first boyfriend broke up with me by stopping taking my calls text, and emails and unfriending my on myspace. (yeah way back when that was the it social network) So definitely this dose not help my insecurity I feel when people I'm close to suddenly fall out of contact.
I have also been left by one friend with the seed of a thought of, what is it that I seem to be missing in my life and my self right now that I am trying to fill when I allow my self to be pulled into relationships so quickly and deeply, and what is it that I have to do to fill this need my self, not only so that I don't jump into relationships that are not going to go any where but also so that I don't keep jumping into ones that are only going to hurt me any way.
I know it has been a while since my last post, and I would like to say that I do value those that fallow my post as well as any comments and or feedback that you may have. have a good day, and I hope to be posting more here as I have a couple pet issues I fallow as well as I follow my path to my new beginning.