What I do know is that the largest part of this discomfort within my own skin is with the observation of gayness within my self, whether it be from speak to body language and every thing in between. This is on of the reasons that even though I like making YouTube videos I don't make them hardly ever, it is because when I do and I watch my self back I am forced to see just how gay I actually sound and look/behave. Which is not something that I like to be made to do, which I don't know why I don't like, but I really don't.
I am sorry if this is not making much since, I am having some trouble today with stringing thoughts together in a coherent manner, as well as remembering words I want to use. (the joys of drug side affects) I really am not sure what is wrong. I wish I could be more concise, but I really can hardly think in complete sentences any more at this time, with out it takes about a minute or two for them to actually process. (which makes me want to cry)
As always thank you for reading, and comments and feed back are aways welcome and very much appreciated.